Monday, January 26, 2009

Thanking God

What a wonderful day we had in the house of God yesterday.
Both services were just GREAT!!
God was so real to me yesterday and I thank Him so much for all that He has done for me.
Things have been going really good the past couple of weeks and I was talking with some one last week about this.
They too were telling me about all that God has blessed them with also.
I told them we cannot get relaxed with this as the Devil was just waiting to attack.
Tonight was the night for me but I am praising God anyway.
Let me share a little bit with you.
About 7:45 I took Dolly out and I was sitting on the porch while she was going to the bathroom when a car was coming around the curve. I thought to myself how wonderful it would be if that was our son Larry Jr. coming to visit with us.
Then I started thinking about the morning that our door bell rang at 5:00 to let us know that our son had committed suicide.
Tears came to my eyes as I was thinking about how I would love to have him back just one more time to hug me and me hug him and let him know that I love him.
Then I remembered how unhappy he was for a long time and also the sin he was in and that is when the attack happened.
I thought to myself that one day I would see him again and the devil said "Maybe" you will if he was saved. "IF."
I started to question that and the thought of my son being in Hell is something that I just cannot handle.
Of course I prayed and ask God to help me through this time and that is when the devil lost.
I remember when Larry was a small young man that he gave his life to Christ. I KNOW that I will see him again and we will hug one another.
It still hurts and I still miss him but God is my comforter in this time of my life.
I do thank God for giving Larry to us for so many years and I will always miss him but the good memories will always be with me and no one can take them away.
Proverbs 3: 5 & 6. These are my life's verses.
He will not only direct my path but He will also direct my thoughts.
Love,
Maw Maw

4 comments:

Lisa said...

Dear Janice
I know your heart feels so heavy when it comes to your children. I cannot Imagine the grief one must feel from losing a child. I do know God will carry our burdens with us and give us that sweet peace that only He can give. Im praying That God will give you the peace you need. Love you Lisa

Nanny said...

Dear Lisa,
The heavy burden of losing a child will always be there.
Some days are better than others.
God is my strength and refuge in times of troubles. He is with me all the way every day. Praise His Holy Name.
We just need to be alert when the devil tries to attack. He will always use our weakest link to get at us.
God is good all the time.
Love you and appreciate all your prayers.
Janice

Lori said...

I'm sorry I did not get to meet you on Wednesday night. I'm praying for you and your husband.

Anonymous said...

Dear Janice
Thank you for sharing.
Two years ago my cousin took his life and the circumstance were very similar to your son's. He was also saved at a young age.
I'll always remember the last time he dropped by...he told my husband and I 'When Satan reminds me of my past, I remind him of his future'.

To God be given the glory even through your story.

Love Elizabeth